Day 1 - The Beginning

Do you ever find yourself, once again, trying to start from the beginning because you've found yourself facing another dead end? You want to be free of the past so that you may find a meaningful and peaceful future but the wall that you've built around you obscures your view. You feel safe and comfortable behind your curtain that dreams almost become painful and unbearable. It's like standing on the edge waiting to jump but fear freezes every muscle. You only live once so what are you waiting for?

It's not that easy. Right? Your past will always follow you no matter if you're running or standing still. Why can't the leap just be the change in life you're looking for without all the strings attached? Why is it then, when the slate is wiped clean, residue is always left behind? These are all questions that have arisen from the fear of wanting to make a drastic change in my life.

We follow only one road but end up down many side roads along the way. There is only one beginning and only one end to this road we travel. I would like to think that I've been traveling down one of those side roads for a very long time and would like to find my way back. I have grown weary from my travels down this road and the dark vacancy that it has inflicted upon me.

Something has sparked and rekindled the ember inside and it has grown vengeful. Some of us walk through life without regret but others carry the burden and become slaves to it but I intend to toss it overboard. These regrets have fueled my rage into an inferno of combustion. The patience I once embraced has been extinguished by an atomic lust for balance.

Without any doubt, I believe what I am looking for is out there. Love, peace and balance are on the edge of the horizon and I am setting a course to reach them. With the anchor lifted, the sails unfurled, and the compass set I am on a journey that will hopefully take me in the direction where fiction and reality are one. And yes, my yearning heart was somehow left behind on the Riviera Maya of Mexico.